Jun
26
payday binge
Filed Under Addiction Treatment, Drug Abuse, drug addiction
 I knew I was in trouble, with meth, the first time my habit cost me an entire paycheck. I say the “first time†because the payday binge would be a recurring theme, as I got deeper into my downward spiral…but I was still lucid enough that first time to know I was getting myself in deep shit.
Not that it stopped me. The thing about meth, or drugabuse, is that it has its own logic. When you’re using, that’s all you can think about: your next score, your next hit. If you have to blow a paycheck or two to get your fix…so be it. It doesn’t have to make sense to anyone but you.
It was, of course, a long way down after that first payday binge. But there was nothing I could do to stop it, any of it: nothing I could do to pull out of a tailspin that seemed to feed off itself, so that before too long I was more just along for the ride than anything else. I was fortune enough to still be breathing when I hit rock bottom. If you are now where I was then, don’t count on having the same luck. Have the good sense to get help while you still can
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